well, i am quite amazed, actually, at the complete lack of news that i have to write about. i apologize in advance. i am pondering quite a few things, though...
i think i may become an evil, corporate pig and take a second job at starbucks. while i would be peddling overpriced coffee that tastes like burnt lichate, i would be making at least OK money, with benefits. starbucks gives their employees health insurance and a whole mess of other good stuff at 20 hours. and since i'm only taking 20-25 hours a week at my real job now, that would be kind of perfect. i have quite a few salon clients who are former starbucks employees and all of them spoke of it as a decent job. so hey, if i'm going to go corporate, i figure it's best to work for a corporation that treats its employees well.
i do worry about the state of downtown noho, though, what with the rumors of a quizno's going in to what used to be bart's, and a cold stone creamery going in to the old poster shop. if rents here stay as high as they are, then corporations are the only things that will be able to afford to occupy those spaces. and since i do believe that he-who-must-not-be-named owns most of the town, i can't help but think we're in trouble. small businesses will be foorced to drive up their prices, driving people with not-so-much money to the chain stores, which can afford to make prices cheaper. sigh...
in related news, the good thyme deli has begun to charge for their salad bar by the pound. i only find this unusual because they used to have a big sign that said, "WE don't weigh salads." now they do. perhaps it is because of my long salad bar hiatus that this is news to me. but i'm in favor of them doing whatever they have to do to stay alive in downtown. it's a cool place with unique stuff in the salad bar and political stuff in the windows.
so here's another thing, and this probably should fall into the category of "too personal to blog about," but i, just like almost every single woman i know, have multiple eating disorders. this does suck. a lot. it's funny what passes for personal information these days. you ask me the last time i got some, i'd tell you about a month ago. ask me what i had for dinner last night, and i'd be thinking of how best to answer, what to ommit or add to the truth, in order to make me look like i'm not a massive pig or an anorexic, when actually both of those things are probably true about me. and since the last time i got sick, i vowed to myself that i would never, ever deprive myself of anything for a stupid reason. but then i think how i still need to keep my body at its healthiest, and that means eating less of what i want. and since i used to weigh 300 pounds, and consider myself a true foood addict, this makes the balance absolutely brutal. i've maintained a fairly steady weight for about 3 years now, but it's only because i go in spurts of pigging out, and then go through a purification, where i only eat super-healthy. i don't think i need to go on about the causes, it's genetics, both of body type and of addictive personality, and the fun media-soaked, britney-spears-got-chubby-so-she's-not-sexy-anymore culture that we live in. anyways, i'm not sure why i'm telling y'all this, except that it's been on my mind a lot lately. i just need to remind myself that no matter how "fat" i feel, i've come a long way from where i was. my friends love me anyways and would still love me no matter what i look like.
anyways, i'm starting to feel less bald. i finally found a prooduct that makes my little baby hair stick up a bit, (head games' wound up) and look more intentional. my clients and friends have all loved it so far. probably mostly cause i'm much less cranky without a big pile of fake hair on my head.
falcon ridge folk festival in a week and a half!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
